Callan started her ballet lessons today, and when I say lessons I mean lots of ribbon twirling, toe tapping, and dancing around. My heart pretty much turned into a puddle the second me got her dressed in her little leotard (that was huge on her tiny little body by the way) and tights. It’s like all of a sudden she’s turning into this little girl! It was so cute seeing her play and interact with all the other girls, having so much fun. Im going to be honest, me and Dom were pretty nervous for how it was going to go, we were afraid she was going to be so shy and not want to participate in anything but she was totally loving everything! Although, I myself was not prepared for dance class today. We were the first ones there, just to make sure she was all checked in and everything, so I was sitting on the benches they had for the parents, then all the moms and their kids starting trickling in. I had noticed that all the other moms were in workout attire, but I just thought it was just a quo incidence, until we started the class. It was pretty much a mommy and me ballet lesson, which its totally fine and I don’t really think the teacher could handle all the girls that age by herself anyway, but it was definitely not the day to wear your tight skinny jeans, let me tell you (haha). We had so much fun though and Callan really enjoyed herself, we can’t wait to go back!
As some of you may know, Dominick was away at school while I was pregnant with our daughter, Callan, and for the first six months after she was born. When he would come home we would either sleep at my moms or his grandparents. It was always a treat to have him home since it didn’t happen very often, so when it did we treated it like a vacation. Well, Dominick is done with school and back home and well lets just say…vacation is over.
Before Callan, we slept at each others house most nights during the week but actually living together all the time is a whole other ball game. Even though, we’ve almost been living together for almost a year, there are still new things that I learn all the time about how he lives. For example, I didn’t know that he only likes sleeping with a blanket as a pillow at night but he was only using a pillow because of me! It wasn’t until I asked him why he would always tear apart all the covers and sheets at night that he finally told me he prefers to sleep with his blankets as pillows. I know, I don’t really get it either, but then again I don’t even like sleeping with any pillows so who am I to judge (haha). It’s not just Dom though, I have my little quirks too. I have always been someone who needs a little bit of light when they sleep, even if it’s just from the bathroom door. But, ever since I got a t.v. in my room, I’ve usually just gotten into the habit of falling asleep to the t.v.; Dom hates that I do that. I’m usually the one to go to bed first, so he will turn it off when he goes to bed but for me, that was a really hard habit to break. It has taken me a while to get used to just going to bed with no light/sound from the t.v. or the bathroom light. Turning the bathroom light on in our room isn’t even an option since it is a sensor light that turn off when you leave the room and the fan turns on every time the lights on so it gets pretty loud. So, we both have our little things that we do that we didn’t really realize before. It was so funny, the first time I came over to Dominick’s house, his room was spotless! All the clothes were put away, all the shelves organized, bathroom counters all wiped clean, you wouldn’t believe a boy lived in there! Then after I moved in, and as time went on, I realized that that was all just to impress me.
Living together is fun and its so great getting to wake up next to each other everyday but I have to say it is definitely a game charger and it takes a lot of compromising. I thought I knew what living with Dom would be like since we have slept over at each others houses so many times but its totally different, not to mention add a baby in the mix! We have had to grow up so fast, as individuals and in our relationship that we are still trying to figure out how to do everything and sometimes that can be a real challenge. No matter how hard it gets though, I am so happy I get to go through it with Dom. He is an amazing dad to our daughter and such a supportive boyfriend, with whatever I do, he’s always my number one fan and I will always be his. Even though it may not always be easy living together, I can’t wait to do it for the rest of our lives.
When I was pregnant with my daughter Callan, I would just imagine her sleeping sweetly in her crib, so peaceful and innocent. I would also dream about the day she would once be too big for her crib and would have to sleep in a beautiful little girls bed, surrounded by her friends all stuffed with fluff, growing more and more each day into a little girl, and looking less like a baby. Little did I know, these days may come sooner than I thought or even wanted.
Callan has been sleeping in her own crib, in her own bed throughout the night for quit some time now, but the past few nights she has been waking up around 1 a.m. So, after a few nights of going in to check on her and putting her back to sleep, I decided I was going to just let her cry it out and hopefully these mid-night wake ups will be put to an end. This night seemed different though, all of a sudden her cries turned into screams ! I figured something must be wrong, so I went to go get her and when I got to her door, to my surprise there was Callan, standing at my feet just waiting for some one to come in! She some how figured a way out of her crib, even from the lowest it could go ! I immediately picked her up and told Dominick what happened. We were both just so shocked that she did that and didn’t know what to do. We checked her to make sure she wasn’t hurt or had broken anything, and thank god she didn’t have a scratch on her. Callan ended up sleeping the rest of the night in bed with us because we didn’t want to risk getting hurt if she tried to get out of her crib again.
In the morning, we put her back into her crib to see if she would try to get out so we could see how she did it, but instead she laid right down, all snuggled up with her blanket so happy to be there. Which by the way never happens, she usually hates being in her crib if she’s not sleeping. She probably didn’t mind being in there because now she knows that she’s not stuck and can get herself out ! Me and Dominick talked it over some more and decided that we should just transition her into her own kids bed and out of her crib. We don’t want her to hurt herself trying to get out, it’s a really big fall for such a little girl ! So now we are on the look out for a cute little bed for our little tiny girl.
I didn’t think that I would actually be sad to see her crib be gone and a bed in its place, but I think it makes her seem so much older now and not my little baby girl. I never want to rush her to get to the next milestone or have her do something she isn’t ready for, but with this I don’t think we have a choice. I’ll be heart broken to see her growing up so fast, but I know ill sleep so much better knowing she is safer.