I apologize to my readers, if they is any (haha) about my failure to post as often as I’d like. My life has been super crazy and still haven’t had a second to catch up with it all. I’ll fill you guys in about what’s been happening recently and give you an idea about what the past month or so has been like for us.
Me and Dom decided that it was time for me to go back to work especially since our most expensive time of the year is quickly approaching. I knew I wasn’t going to be able to handle a full time job with my school load and with Cal so I took a part time job as a receptionist at a hair salon. The training was super easy and pretty mellow, that was until I got thrown into their other salon location on one of the busiest days by myself with no one there who knew how to do any of my job. It was one of the most stressful days in a long time and by the end of it I wanted to cry. Now that I’ve been there for a little, things are starting to become easy and it’s not so bad anymore.
When I was choosing my schedule, I figured three days a week would be good to start off with, the days I don’t go to school I’ll go to work and I’ll still be able to work at the bar after we close the salon on the weekends. Sounds great, right ? Wrong. I completely under estimated how intense my classes would be. I’m only taking three classes but let me tell you…they are anything but a walk in the park. I spend the first part of my day at work or in class and the rest of the day trying to finnish assignments, take tests, and just keep my head above water. Not to mention how guilty I feel about barley having any time to do anything fun with Callan these days. I do my best to try and squeeze in some pool time or do a little date day/night with her, but it still breaks my heart because I want to give her all my time. Callan is at such a fun age right now to. Everyone says “terrible twos” but honestly she isn’t terrible at all, she’s beyond sweet and so stinkin’ funny ! I feel like if I’m not with her I’m missing out on these precious times and memories together.
Although, on the other hand I feel like a mom boss thats doing everything I can to support my daughter and make sure she’s taken care of, no matter how extremely tired I am by the end of the day. I also do think it is important to show Callan that women are strong, independent people who can accomplish whatever they want if they put their mind to it. Growing up my mom was going to school and working so she would afford to put us through school. I have always admired my mother for how hard she work and how she supported me and my sisters all by herself. I hope that I can have the same impact on Callan as my mom did on me, because that all we really want as parents, right ? To teach our children to be good, strong people.
Motherhood is such a roller coaster of emotions sometimes and we mamas sure have one helluva job, but it isn’t always the easiest. So here’s to everyone doin’ the damn thing, and if no one has told you recently but your doing a great job !