Flower Fields Forever 

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If you guys haven’t already heard of the Carlsbad Flower Fields, then you’ve been missing out on some serious awe factor my friends. Covering fifty acres of Giant Tecolote Ranunculus flowers, in an array of the most beautiful natural bright colors, make up The Flower Fields. They are only in bloom for approximately six to eight weeks each year – from early March through early May – literally bringing the famous fields back to life. This annual burst of color, which has become part of the area’s local heritage, also is one of nature’s official ways of announcing the arrival of spring here in southern California.

This past week, me and my friend, Taylor, made a visit to see it in all its glory but since its still early and a lot of the flowers still need to bloom, only the North Field of the ranch was full. It actually ended up being pretty perfect because it wasn’t crowded with people and we got to just stop and hangout at our own leisure.

*Also, this was our first attempt at using a selfie stick and it was pretty hilarious. I’m sure the people walking past us had a good laugh, as did we.

They have more than just a big field of flowers though,lots of neat succulents and  they have fun things like a sweet pea flower maze, which is actually a bit of a challenge. Also, there is a cute playground for kids, which is a perfect picnic spot for families and lemonade stand (a must try by the way)! They even offer tours and wagon rides around the fields while they talk about the history, planting process and growing cycle, etc.

So, if your looking for something fun to do over spring break or want to cross this off your bucket list-do it ! Plus, who couldn’t have fun and be happy when your surrounded by pretty flowers ?!

You Don’t Know Me

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Okay, I try and keep it pretty real and positive on here for the most part (haven’t fully opened up about everything-not that ready to yet) but I have to talk about something that’s been really burning me up and can’t stop thinking about.

The other night while I was working, I ran into someone I used to hangout with for a little before I had Callan, went on a few dates here and there but just didn’t really click. Anyways, I was polite and asked how he has been and he said good. Then he gave me this weird look and asked me, “So, how’s the whole baby thing working out? Must be really hard.” In probably the most judgmental way possible. There are so many other ways you can ask about my child, (who is pretty much perfect without question) than to ask with a look in your face like I’ve made some sort of mistake or something. Nonetheless, I didn’t want to make a big deal about it, especially at work so I replied with a “really good, she’s seriously the best.” Then he goes on to say something along the lines of, “well there’s a difference between a good kid and and easy kid. I’m sure it’s pretty hard.”… I could not believe I was even having this conversation. I couldn’t help but laugh and walk away at that point.

First of all, Callan is seriously thee best thing that has ever happened in my life and I wouldn’t change a single thing about her, the timing, her father, nothing. She’s absolutely perfect and I’ve never once looked at her like she was some sort of burden or mistake. She only continues to make my life brighter and happier every single day. Secondly, sure we have some hard days and I’m not going to lie and say I’ve never sat in my car and cried when sometimes it gets to be a lot but I’m only human and sometimes you have to let it out in order to reset.

But to stand there and judge me like you know my life and assume it must be really hard because I’m a young mom who isn’t married or anything, is so just plain rude and naive. I have such an unbelievable support system and family who constantly shower Callan with love and wanting to help out. I have no need for that kind of negative energy in my life about something so positive like a child.

Maybe the ones who judge only think the way they do because they have never experienced the love a parent has for a child and can’t even wrap their head around what they are actually missing. You carry this blessing in your body, surrendering it to be stretched and expanded in way you didn’t think possible, for this little person you haven’t even met yet because you already have this crazy love for them right from the start. Then, you see their little face and all their tiny features, and can’t even fathom how you have created something so unbelievably perfect. It won’t be until you have a kid of your own that you begin to understand and appreciate why your parents did the things that they did and made the choices they did until you are holding this precious little mini version of yourself, and don’t know what you would do if anything bad happened to them.

So bottom line, don’t judge someone based on what statistics say or what you think is right, because in reality you have no idea. Boy bye.

 

San Francisco 

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Life has been pretty crazy lately, just one thing after another and felt like I just couldn’t catch a break. I was really itching for a little getaway so me and my best gal pal, Taylor, decided to take a little road trip up the coast to visit our friend Torie in San Francisco ! We got there late afternoon Wednesday and left Friday morning so we basically only had one full day to explore the city but it was the perfect amount of time because well, I miss Callan way too much to leave her for that long, let’s be real.

I’ve been to San Francisco a handful of times but I’ve never actually done all the touristy things people usually do, so we spent the full day we had, checking out some of the fun places ! Here’s a little bit of what our time in San Frnsisco looked like…

Of course our first was none other than…a coffee shop, duh ! We went to Wrecking Ball Coffee which had the cutest wall paper and friendly baristas.

Next, we headed to Castro street, which is known for the rainbow side walks and all the gay pride up and down the street. We stopped in to Harvey’s for a drink (recommend the white sangria) before we continued on.

Let me tell you, driving in San Francisco is really freaking stressful ! BUT the views you find, over looking the city are so pretty you can’t not stop and look. There are just so many big building, colorful and unique houses, creative murals painted all over the city it’s so amazing !

And what’s a touristy trip to SF without hanging out at Dolores park where you can casually pop a bottle of rose and  people watch until your heart desires.

Oh hey ladies ! Here’s a few of the beautiful painted ladies themselves. Oh and me !

And last but not least, the famous house from the tv show series Full(er) House ! I watched the show growing up so it was so cool to finally see it in person ! Although, I was a little bummed they pained the red door.

Fun Fact: the producter/creator of the show recently bought the Full House house ! Not sure if he’s going to be living in it or what he’s going to do but that’s still so awesome !

Well, that pretty much sums up what our time in San Francisco looked like, minus some really yummy eats we went to. I love the city and can’t wait to go back !

Callan These Days

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  • Talking like crazy, and slowly getting more and more understandable. My favorite is “snuggle you” and “I vee you”. Although, some still need some work, fox for example comes out as “F*$%”…
  • Favorite shoes to wear are her rain boots, that are too big but she still prefers them over any other shoe. Probably because she knows so can stomp in the mud and puddles in them without a care.
  • Tells everyone to “go sleep” so she can scare them awake but if you tell her to go to sleep, Callan pats her tummy, turns her head to the side and will tell you “no I go sleep” with a concerned look on her face.
  • Favorite food is blueberry “fuffins” aka muffins and if you offer her berries, chances are she will finish the entire container.
  • Loves to have detangler sprayed in her hair but will fight taking a bath or shower like her life depended on it.
  • Obsessed with disney princesses. Sometimes we can’t leave until all her pockets are stuffed with as many princesses as her jacket and hands can hold. Calls Pocahontas “Hummas” and Rapunzel is “Punzol”
  • Callan will wake me up by either softly patting my checks and saying “mama mama mama” or kissing my cheeks followed by “I vee you more” as in i love you more, which is literally the best way to wake up everyday!
  • We moved her kitchen into her room and ever since then she has been cooking up a storm and has turned into the best barista ever, always making me coffee!
  • Whenever Callan sees my essential oils, she wants to have them put on her. (We have kids friendly roll ons, don’t worry people) Then puts them on everyone else too.
  • Always trying to make me take my hair out of a pony tail or bun so she can play with it, which is pretty much one big knot but I love it.

Finally 2017

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2016 seemed to be just one big punch in the face. We lost so many great people, I feel like so many have been divided due to the presidential elections, and just personally it was an overall tough year. So, I’m going into the new year full of hope and excited for change. I’ve jotted down some of my resolutions, because i believe change starts with ourselves and as one of my favorite quotes from Gandhi goes, “Be the change you wish to see in the world”. Some of these goals are for my health, my outlook on life and way of living. 

In 2017 I plan to…

1.) Get my butt back into shape. I know that’s such a cliche New Years resolution and usually only lasts for about a week or two but I really need to work on my physical health. Even just starting with a walk or jog in the morning, anything to get me moving. If I start doing that, hopefully I’ll have more energy for the rest of the day and start on a good note. Plus, a rockin’ bod wouldn’t be so bad either.

2.) Strengthen my relationship to God. My family has never been the ones who go to church every Sunday or anything. My grandparents sang in the choir and we would go every now and then to watch them but for the most part it wasn’t our usual. As I get older though, I have had this feeling that I need to become closer to God or a higher power, whatever you prefer. I’m trying to trust that he has a plan and that it’s much greater than mine, even when it’s hard.

3.) Read more books. Over this Christmas break I have had time to slow down for a bit and actually relax now that there isn’t school or work. I got a couple books for Christmas that I’ve been reading and it’s been so nice to actually set time out of the day for myself and actually get lost in a book. 

4.) Travel. This past year I took a camping trip with a friend to Joshua Tree and it was amazing! I had planned another camping trip to Big Sur but unfortunately those got cancelled due to land slide issues (damn you Mother Nature). But just getting out of my element and getting to explore is so liberating! One of my close friends just left to study abroad in Italy and found some really good flights to visit her! How fun would it be, to go around Italy with your best friend?! Also, my sister moved to New Orleans recently so my mom and sister are planning to see her in a couple months, I can’t wait! Those two trips and hopefully a few camping adventures under the stars are what I’m aiming for in 2017!

5.) This is a little far fetched but I would really like to try the whole minimal lifestyle. Less in more people. I really admire the people who only live what the necessities and don’t have all the extra crap we think we need. I’ve slowly been trying to go through my closet and let go of the things that I’ve held onto for so long because I might wear them someday. It’s been hard, and I’ve only started with my closet but I think once I realize that it’s pointless to hold onto so much stuff that we don’t need or use, and really declutter our lives I’ll feel so much better. Also, I’ll be able to save more if I stop buying things that aren’t essential. 

6.) Be present. I really want to be better about not being on my phone or thinking about all these other things instead of enjoying the people I’m with or what we are doing. Especially with Callan, she is so talkative these days and is growing up so fast that I really don’t want to miss a thing because I know these moments are fleeting fast.